Well, shit.

Olly wants me to do my grading in two weeks. I AM TERRIFIED. I have no idea how I'm going to be able to learn all the Japanese for the kihon in that time, plus I have to do this fucking 3000-word essay on the hydrological cycle in 3 and a half weeks, plus I need to actually keep up with my notes and things. And buy a lab-coat. And probably do something else terribly important. Damn.

Kempo is kind of taking over my life a little bit. I'm not sure if I mind or not. It's mostly Owen, and my yellow belt grading. I actually had a dream where I was trying to remember the Japanese for moving forwards at a 45° angle (mae chidori ashi), then half-woke up when I did remember, thought "I need to remember that", then went back to sleep and forgot it.

I need to remember my Japanese vocab! Oh God! I am going to die! What can I remember off the top of my head?

mae - forward
ushiro/ato - backward
hidari - left
migi - right
chudan gamae - aggressive stance? Apparently just 'stance'
gassho-rei - well, rei
seiretsu - line up
sashi komi ashi - step forwards (don't change stance)
sashi kae ashi - step forwards (change stance)
zuki - punch
geri - kick
jodan - head
chudan - chest area? ish?

Okay, I need to cheat now.

kani ashi - step sideways
zen tenkan - turn 180°

I knew those! Goddamn it. Right. Getting off the computer. I need to write these down. Shit, I need to know 'back hand punch' and everything like that, too. *breaks down*

I do want to grade, I really do, and I do want to do it for myself, but there's a part of me thinking "Owen will think so much less of you if you don't grade this month, or if you fail", so I REALLY MUST DO IT! I also need to remember that I'm not actually going out with him. My mind does like to think that, and it's a dangerous thing to think.