I am kind of worried that I have some horrible side of me that my friends see and I don't. I have had two of my best friends tell me big things about themselves, and started their messages to me with "I'm really scared you'll hate me after I tell you this, but...", and while I am aware that it is probably just them being really scared of telling anyone their secret with the irrational fear that me now knowing this about them will suddenly mean that they are no longer the person I was friends with, I have also had a group of friends tell me that I have a "face" that I put on sometimes that means I am angry and they are almost scared of doing something to upset me. I had no idea I had this "face".
What is wrong with me?! :(
I think I know how that feels. At summer camp when I was 14 I was talking to these girls about our insecurities. Our counselor joined the conversation and said something about how she didn't know the other girls felt that way. Then she looked at me and sai my mom told her about me. I still wonder what my mom said. She probably doesn't even remember. But for a long time after that I was afraid I had some kind of social disability or something that no one wanted to tell me about. I could hear it in the way ky teachers talked to me like I was super fragile and they didn't want to break me. What if they DID know something about me that I didn't? I guess I don't care anymore.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry, that little ME ME ME story probably didn't help at all. :)
That sounds horrible. :( The paranoia that everyone knows/thinks something about you and you have no idea is not nice.
ReplyDeleteNo worries about telling me stories! :)